[Thoughts] I just need to say this.

I just need to say this, then I'll let it go. But before I let it go, I need to say this!

I have this weird habit for a long time. I always try to do things in my own ways, regardless of what other people suggest. I don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes I comfort myself by saying: it just means being more experimental, which is a good thing", but I know it's not true. I want myself to be like everyone else, to be a person who blends in, who fits into the society, which is a really difficult thing for me. I've studied sociology and want to know what's wrong with me, but that did't help much. I don't think I'm sick, because I can still function normally. But I'm weird, I just stand out in the crown effortlessly, and not the kind of stand out that makes people admire; rather, it's the kind of stand out that makes people uncomfortable. Also, I'm so afraid of people saying words. I always have an urge to wipe those words out.

Okay, or maybe I'm sick. Because I'm so weird! Why can't I be like everyone else? I just want a normal life, and stop thinking. Stop letting people hurt me, especially people who know nothing about me. Yeah...that's the thing I need. I'll state them clearly:

1. I'll stop taking words personally from anyone that knows nothing about me.
2. I'll try to respect my own uniqueness, and try the best to respect others' uniqueness.
3. I'll protect myself. I'll stop doing whatever I want for an experiment then hurt myself badly.

Okay. Good. Now I go to bed and sleep, and tomorrow I'll try my best enjoying myself in the amusement park.