【Secret】My Deepest Fear

My deepest fear is having to conform to others when it's against my will. I think of the word "conformity", I think of a world I can never achieve. My self is so big and jumping up and down in my mind that I can never let it down. If I let it down, I can't do anything good. I do my best when I do things my own way. If I was told to follow others' instructions, I usually fear and be reluctant to do that. There, my weakness, fear to conformity. Things are worse especially I grow up and live in an Asian country, where - conformity is a virtue and be valued highly. I don't know how to change myself to fit in this world. Sometimes I don't want to change myself because I'v only got to live my life once, and I want to live it my own way, exactly how I want to live it. I'm constantly struggling and confused, but most of the time I manage to cover my real thoughts. I have to say it somewhere and sometime so I say it here.